I hope you still feel small, when you stand by the ocean. :)Nothin like some good ol LeAnn
I recently recieved a card from a friend thanking me for supporting their ministry financially. This friend is becoming a full time missionary and is in need of financial support- which is hard enough, without having to raise funds during the nations econmic crisis. Anyway, the friend said in their thank-you card that “they found it interesting that their friends who are college students with no jobs are willing to give anything they have and trust the Lord will provide. Yet, adults have such a hard time even giving $20.”
And I began to think of my struggles in trusting in God, even believing in God. I don’t know when- at what age it started. But there was a shift- when I stopped believing in everything magical and set off to find anything rational. But God’s love is irrational. It’s crazy. It makes no sense. It’s crazy to think that inspite of me and my sin- he still loves me the same. You could even gamble and call it insane… you know, doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. Loving me the same way… even though he knows I will sin til the day I die. Maybe that’s a stretch. I digress…
There’s a point in all of our lives when I think we stop thinking like a child. I remember no less than 3 months ago I told someone about how I didn’t believe in miracles or angels- even though I know they exist and miracles happen everyday; I didn’t truly believe. I say all of this to say…it’s hard to have faith sometimes, because as we grow up (some faster than others) we realize that the world is cold hard and cruel. But it’s a good thing we aren’t of this world and we don’t live by it’s rules; but kingdom principles.
Check Matthew 18:2-5
